This morning when I was waiting for the lights, a tall man stood beside me. As we were crossing the streets, he raised his voice,
‘Hey Tony!’
The person named Tony, who was crossing the road in the opposite direction, did not acknowledge. So he ran backwards to chase after Tony until he got a ‘Hi’ back. Did he really want to greet Tony so badly? Or did he simply feel like an idiot for saying ‘Hi’ to the thin air?
Sometimes I think we are too afraid of being lonely. Paranoid might be the word. I do believe that humans need each other to survive, and so do other living things, which form the food chain and all sorts of other cycles. As for humans, we need someone to share our emotions with, something that will give us an understandable response, and that is a thing that only other human beings are capable of doing so. When you saw a great movie, when you went to a terrible restaurant, when you were caught in a ridiculous argument, you want your feelings to be acknowledged by another person, maybe make you feel, ‘If someone else agrees, I guess my reaction was normal.’
We need other peoples’ acknowledgement.
So that is us, we share, we learn, because no one can read minds and sharing is the only form of communication we know of. We build connections with different people, we find new ways to keep our connections alive, and we get more and more used to our connections with people being stable and rapid. This is when we realize, it is getting harder and harder to disconnect ourselves, we start to share every little detail to the whole world, bragging, looking for comfort.
Maybe we are like waldo, we try to hide who we are, but at the same time we put on really bright colours, hoping that someone would notice us.
-Jon
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